dont feel good, life was rather screwed. thanks debra and korkor for the concern. and buddy i will be alright, dont worry. i will try to put down everything and resume my daily life, give me some time. everything will be alright after all the crying. buddy says, 'is not worth to cry for someone if he do not care about u'.

time check: 2.38AM
5th July 2008
the day i will rememebr forever??

met ger and val. dinner @ essential brew(holland v) the atmosphere was rather good. took alot of photos (: then proceed to ngee ann halo bar. had cherry brandy with soda. ger and i sang! wo bu hui chang ge for ger and ji de for me. my hands are like shaking all the way lo. saw shawn, went to meet his friends. left around 10plus. cab-ed to jp to go for another round of drinking. bought barcadi breezer, dont know what(8%) and long island tea(11% mixture of 6 kinds of liquor) was abit drunk and went ger's hse to sleepover cos it's already 12 plus by then. msn-ed. and thanks for everything, i realised i'm stronger than i thought. omg, i didnt cry. we both know, just that we want to get the information it from each other. to you: dont worry. you will see a cheerful me next time. ps. after seeing the last message you sent me, i really feel like crying but i hold. i know you wont want to see me that way. it has been more than half a year, i lied to myself and hang on to it. but recently, i underdstood. so everything will be alright for me.
byebye, 6 plus months love!
please do treat me the same way you did before. i really feel that we are drifting apart somehow. i'm use to that caring you, please come back!